It was two years ago this month that I finally figured out exactly what I wanted. It wasn’t an easy decision, I had traveled down some tricky roads, tossed and turned through sleepless nights and after intellectually weighing all the pros and cons I decided against logic and followed my heart.
I stepped out of all the busyness of life and took a rest. It had been over 30 years since I had such a rest. Not just a 2 week holiday but an indefinite hiatus from the world with no plans. It reminded me of the time just after graduating University; a time of excited uncertainty. I had no doubts that whatever lied ahead would be amazing and I was right.
In the Gospel of John we read of two disciples who began to literally follow Jesus down the road. Turning around, Jesus saw them and asked, “What do you want?” They wanted to be closer to him and had stopped everything in their lives to do so. He invited them to, “Come and see.” I felt as though I was one of those disciples and excitedly followed.
What an adventure it has been! My prayer life has improved immensely and with certainty I have heard back from God in the song of the birds, the sway of the trees and in the silence of a full moon. Miraculously opportunities came my way and I now find myself serving God as a Hospice Chaplain and a Country Preacher, both roles bringing me deep purpose and a sustaining peace.
As author Hiral Nagda writes, “Sometimes doing nothing makes way for everything.”
So? How about you? What do you really want?